Sunday, June 10, 2012

Who am I?

I have tried writing and deleting this post a few times now, why is this so hard to answer, I really want to be a part of this, but it feels so difficult, and it is because of this that I don't want to give up. I know I need to get out of my comfort zone and be real, no glossing over, but it is so hard.

I'm a Woman. I'm a mother a daughter a wife a sister a friend.

But that is too broad, what distinguishes me from everyone else, what makes Me, ME! Because I know I am unique, original and one of a kind (so are you) there is no one the same as me. That is amazing, and frightening at the same time. That means, I have something to offer that no one else can, so do you. It means even though I do, I shouldn't compare myself to others, or try to be someone I'm not, because I don't believe God made a mistake when I was made, or when you were either.

That doesn't mean that I stop trying to be the best Me that I can be, because I know I'm not perfect. I can have a bad attitude, I can be rude, I'm not always the best communicator, I get jealous, I overreact, I feel lonely sometimes, I am not always confident, I make bad decisions, I like to wallow, I avoid rather than confront, I get too stressed, I'm selfish, I'm disorganised, I'm afraid of failure, I am overly sensitive, I'm not a great listener, I am not great at writing, I am bad at attention to detail, my house is a mess.

Everyday I keep trying and working on ME, and who I am, trying to be the best Me that I can. Trying to be less of the things listed above because they detract from who I really want to be, I know as well as those things I am also passionate about my family, I hate injustice, I fight for the underdog, I am smart, and analytical, I love to smile, I dream big dreams, I am kind and compassionate, I am loud, I love to speak to a big crowd, I am determined, I am supportive, I am an encourager, I like to laugh and have fun, I'm a good Mum, I will do anything for those I love, I am inclusive: I hate seeing people left out, I am funny, I am adventurous, I love a challenge, I am creative.

Who are you?

This is my answer to the question Who The Hell Are You? Posed by Eden Riley. Check out some of the other bloggers great answers by clicking on the link (image) below.

Edenland's Fresh Horses Brigade

 

 

10 comments:

  1. Thanks for the honest post. I think most of all we always need to remain determined, support others and have fun. Like you said. xx

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  2. from Denise (not Gary!)  Thanks for pressing on to write your feelings out. It's so good to be intentional about who we want to be, cause the days fly by, and especially being a stay at home mom  I found out, that you have less people to affirm you.  When you set goals and take time for self-reflection with prayer, I think we're sure of moving on in directions that take us to contentment, with ourselves. That's one of the things I treasure about my life right now-- I am content, and I have few regrets. I really found myself stepping up to the plate in the secret spaces of my life when I left the career zone-- in part cause of this little boy Joel who kept imitating me, and I saw myself as the first front on which his innocence could either be nurtured or destroyed--by such things that had been, in the adult world, considered small things--like fudging the truth a bit, or saying hurtful words to my spouse. Intentional became my motto in his preschool years-- I was not a writer or the one-of-the first women in the parks-- I was over the toilet bowl washing out the diaper/nappies (doing my part to save the environment of course).  I became closer to God as I began to win the struggle to be pleased with my own secret choices--to trust what God said about me, that I was doing something significant in his eyes, whether or not others noticed it or cared. Investing in the life of one child changes the world-- yours, his, and others. In part, that's what's linked us to each other. I'm proud of you. We love you. Take up God's challenge to take hold of those things for which Christ has taken hold of you!

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  3. And you are beautiful! Great post - glad you didn't delete it :) 

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  4. I like the way you think! We definitely need to encourage 'realness' it can be so hard, especially when most of us try to always show our best self to the world. Thanks for the encouragement and for taking the time to comment!

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  5. This is a wonderful post, Karen! I think opening up is hard - especially in such a public space. I don't think it means you lack depth at all (and obviously this post demonstrates otherwise, anyway), it just means you approach things differently. There also seems to be this perception your blog needs to be all shiny happy and unicorns in order for people to see it as having value. I think that sucks and the more people that open up...the more likely that being real will be valued x

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  6.  Hi! I think I know exactly what you mean, I am the same way. I don't spend a lot of time delving into my innermost self, I just get on with things! I don't think I'm 'shallow' but I'm not as deep as a lot of people! :)Thanks for visiting and following as well!! 

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  7. Thanks Crystal, I will check it out for sure!! I think your right, they are going to be the ones who benefit from this!

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  8. Thanks Janelle, your always so complimentary love it!

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  9. I found it hard too, Karen. (And hello, by the way, I'm new to your blog!). I realised that I'm not one of those bloggers who can gush it all out into the internet. I don't think I know enough about what I feel to do that confidently, do you know what I mean? I honestly don't think I think that deeply, or at least, if I do, it's not as important to me to delve.

    Anyway, this has been a lovely introduction to your blog. x

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  10. love this post :) on my heart too (a new mama thing?) - mine is over at Joyful Mothering if you want to check it out: 
    http://joyfulmothering.net/2012/05/18/undefined/. Our kiddos are going to be blessed that we want to figure this out & let God work it out in our hearts! 

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